Tutorial

This weeks tutorial didnt go so well. I felt really thrown off i know alison is trying to guide me and i worry her cause my pace isnt constant and my work load is up and down but i struggle as i have to work to be able to afford the course so its a balence for me of uni and work. I dont want my work to suffer and recently i am exhausted. I feel thrown off as i feel because im a bit behind she doesnt think i can do it and its hard to push yourself if you feel that people dont believe in you. I understand her concern so she wants me to go ahead with the sunray pleating. Im abit worried that it is to on trend at the moment but i will have to use it in a different way to ensure it works. I know  i need to repeat garments but i felt this week a little like i was been told what to make just so that i finished and soonbut thats not what it is about i need constructive critisism and i just feel downhearted at the moment. I dont think creativity should ever be sacrificed because of time i just need help to organise what order to work in to get on top of it. A part of me feels sad but when i have a bad tutorial the next day it fire sme up to get on and prove people wrong.